Ok, I know I don't use this very much but at least I am still alive on here.  My mom is back up and walking and working again (yay!!!!!!) so we are happy with that. 

I am having problems here on trying to find another job cause the positions are only part time and I can't handle part time.  I need full time. 

I hate being so far out in the country.  It takes me 15 minutes to get to my job and about 45 minutes to see my fiancee.  I wish I didn't live so far out and I know there is nothing I can do about it right now cause of the money situation.  Sometimes I think it is unfair to me cause all of my friends live that far out and I am out here in b.f.e. which makes things even worse for me.  On Saturdays and Sundays I work in the days and I don't get off maybe 5,6,7, or even 8 at night and I can't hang out with my fiancee cause its too late and it bothers me to no end.  I wish I lived closer to her and my friends so I wouldn't have this problem.  It's not fair.    

I don't want to sound like I just want to be with her, its just I want to live closer.